It's Friday. my official posting day. "What", you say,"I didn't know you posted on friday". Well, that's because sometimes friday turns to Monday before I know what happens so then Monday is the new Friday. I'm sure you just followed that.

Friday is Bentley's  'birthday' for the week, so that is how I keep track of how old he is. Taking a pic in the blue striped onesie and posting about my week. You may or may not have noticed that pattern  Thankfully Friday is never a day that I have to ask "now what day is this again??" Wednesday can be like that, at times. But never ever Friday.  I think it is one of my favoritest days of the week.
So. It's friday. But I didn't take Bentley's 7 week pic yet because the light isn't right in the bedroom yet. Later today.



Mr. B! He is still growing!! And wanting to hold up his head. And wanting to stand on his little feet??!?  Baby. You are only 7 weeks old!!!
He does think he's big stuff. I love it tho. I said last week on my post that there isn't that revelation that things are getting easier, but this week I did have feelings of 'I LOVE having a baby', and just pure enjoyment while taking care of him. Things do click along a little more easy.

It's 10 a.m, and Abbi and I just had spaghetti. We weren't sure if we were supposed to eat breakfast or lunch, so we made it an early lunch. Not sure when we are supposed to eat our next meal now.  I have just been feeling RAVENOUS again, these last few days. Mr. B. might be putting on another growth spurt, who knows. How am i ever to loose weight if I have enough appetite to  just eat everything in sight???  Next week, I want to join weight watchers for nursing moms, just to keep me on some kind of plan. I know it won't be fast, but I don't want to have all this extra with me a year from now, either. Slow and steady wins the race, they say.

Mr B has gained 4 lbs. now, in the last 4 weeks. He is clocking in at 11.5 lbs!!!  I felt a very great sense of accomplishment over that. It has been my chief accomplishment since he is born, after all.  The other night I pumped like, 4 oz. which is alot for me. I couldn't resist being a little gleeful and braggy about it to Daryl. I'm sure he didn't quite 'get' the feeling of accomplishment that gave me, either. But I'll take my jollies where I can get them.  It also erradicated any notion of quiting nursing and buying formula. Really, why pay all that money for formula when so much 'free' is available to readily??

I am taking my vacuum cleaner back to the repair shop for the 5TH TIME!!! Seriously. Why don't i take it to another place??? well, because their work is under warranty, so it's a free fix. Altho, I'm not sure how much they are fixing it. Enough for one sweep through the house, then it's back to the same problem, and back to the repair shop. Again. The guy seems genuinely sorry. but I am starting to loose patience, esp. when I have two kids with me. What am I to do with them while I run the vac in?? is it ok to leave them in the van, or will CPS show up on my doorstep??? Plus, there are these tweezers and small scissors on display on the counter. Very girly, they have fun things painted on them. And every. time. we go there, Abbi begs for one. She thinks the chief reason for returning to the repair shop is to buy her a pair of tweezers. gah. I hate always telling her no, but they are certainly not a great play toy. at all. Plus it makes me a little cranky that we have to go over this same battle like, for the 5th time!



This morning, when I opened facebook, the first 3 posts where blog notifications from some of my favorite people. Do I need to say how it made my day? It did.  Am I the only person who still enjoys a good blog read??  I wish I had more interesting things to say here, then what I do say. I do feel most days like my brain is still mush. My husband comes home from work wanting to hash out something deep or complex, and all I can do is sit here and stare and him, and wonder why I don't want to talk about this right now?? 
Also, I am considering a blog switch. but I'm scared, cuz I have no idea if anyone will still come read. Not that I'm sure if anyone reads anyway. I guess I like comments way too much or something.
eh anyway. what is it with all the negative emotions?? this has just been a strange week for me. feeling needy, emotional, a little lonely, uninspired, uncreative.  How does one kick those feelings, or are they something that shouldn't be avoided?

At any rate. I am blessed. So blessed. Two lovely, lovely children!  I feel like this week has been a turning point for Abbi, in her adjustment struggles. Maybe tomorrow her issues will be back again, but I can tell there is growth happening. It's kinda funny, but I started having her help cook dinner. No matter how 'over her head' the tasks may seem to be. She loves it, and it gives us something to do together that doesn't include baby at all. It seemed to be a big boost for her.

Well now, we are off tomorrow for a weekend at the beach. It's my birthday weekend!  Abbi's excitement knows no bounds, she just cannot wait. We put marks up on the wall to erase each day, how many more 'sleeps' we have to go until we leave. Every morning, it's the first thing she wants to do, erase a mark. Plus also, when she wakes up from naps. They count as sleeps, no?    We are going to stay out near my brothers house in DE, and drive the 20-30 minutes in to the beach. We could stay at a motel there for two nights,  for the same amount of money that  we would have paid for just one night in the beach area!  Plus, my new little nephew is going to arrive, hopefully today, so I get to squeeze in some snuggles with him too! cannot wait!!!

*edit* my nephew just arrived!!! after a brief labor, he's finally here!  Mr. Judah Lael Burkholder! What a great addition to my birthday weekend The next best thing to having kids of my own  is nieces and nephews of my own There will be pictures!